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[ Tuesday//February 9th//2010] There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head. And you can hear the names that they used to call you. You memorized their laugh, their smile and they're silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you and you don't wanna let go even though you know it's just an illusion. Everytime your phone rings, you smile because it's them that's calling. Everytime you hear their name, your heart beats 100 times faster and sometimes, you can't even breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh, but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. All you want is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time you were known as nothing but strangers. But no matter what, you're in denial. You hide your feelings so no one would know. You put on a fake smile & don't let a single tear break through. You're so used to hiding your feelings that you don't realize the pain you are causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible. It's still there, but no one knows. Like a love letter you didn't show. And you are hurting no one, but yourself. this is how i've been feeling for the longest time.   read (0) post

i just wanted to smile. [ Monday//January 25th//2010] i took the initiative to speak to you. you're sucha liar. idk what you're avoiding i wanted the last few mins of today be :) but you made it worse. tyvm heartlesspieceofannoyingshit. D: read (0) post

photos from everywhere! [ Sunday//January 24th//2010] see you soon yen! try to come back during your summer break okay?! <3 see you again soon lovelies :) new year's eve! <3<3<3<3<3   read (0) post

[ Thursday//January 21st//2010] I was very happy on tue night although i was very moody in school. I was happy because smth unexpected happened. I was a little less happy ytd, but still happy. Today, i've no reason to be happy yet. its only week 2 of school but it feels like it's been 200 days.   read (0) post

[ Thursday//January 7th//2010] i am fugging angry and pissed. my blood's boiling. but yet, i cannot call you. this stinks. i should go MIA till school starts. read (0) post

[ Wednesday//December 30th//2009] this will be a public post. friendly match against MI ytd morning and team bbq at caryn's after. i cannot go into the details because my memory of last night are in fragments :( THANK YOU ALL FOR LOOKING AFTER ME IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER!! <3 from what i can remember, - charis and janelle who followed me to the toilet and gave me water and food. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH! - elton,mark and wongyang who took the vodka away from me and stopped me from drinking and ended up drinking everything yourselves and nearly got yourself killed. ( okay, i don't remember this part. But elton says so ) THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH! - bryan and charis for sending me home and THANK YOU BRYAN FOR PAYING FOR THE CAB FARE! - and everyone else who asked if i was alright when i clearly wasn't. i am sober now though my head still feels heavy and my stomach hurts like crazehhh. now i need to patch those fragments of last night together. ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU EVERYONE, GIRLS & GUYS! :) read (0) post

[ Thursday//December 24th//2009] It's the time of the year again. To reflect and think back about 2009, how awesome/horrible it has been, the lessons learnt, the pain you go through, the new friends you made, the friends you lose, the hectic schedule you have had and to make resolutions (which i honestly do not believe in) Most importantly,it's time to think about how you have been as a person and how you wanna improve so that next year, things will hopefully be better. Such alone time is good. And because i have lotsa time at hand, this year, i'll do it differently. that post will be locked. It's too private. Sorry strangers :) read (0) post

[ Wednesday//December 23rd//2009] why must you always take away the short-lived happiness you give me? iknowishouldnotbemissingyou, buticantletyougo :( read (0) post

nobody said that it will hurt so bad. [ Tuesday//December 22nd//2009] Did i say the wrong stuff again? sigh. It's raining now and i kinda like the rain because it's been a long while since i last saw rain. I tend to take things for granted. I've learnt to cherish some and am still learning how to cherish everything i have before me. i guess it's time for bed. I'm not completely well yet. read (0) post

[ Monday//December 21st//2009] because I'm hopelessly falling for you, I think I need you. read (0) post

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